Saturday, December 23, 2017

SpicePrincess' BEST 20 Songs of 2017

2017 was an....interesting year to say the least. I think I can speak for everyone when I say this year felt like....

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But one of the things that surely got me through it aside from God's strength and grace, is music. 

Here's my top 20 songs from 2017 that helped get me through every up, down, and loopty-loop of the roller coaster this year turned out to be. Honestly each and every one of these songs became very personal to me for one reason or another.
In any case, I picked the best of the best and nothing less!
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1. Clearest Blue (Thomas Datt Remix) - CHVRCHES



2. Real Love - Hillsong Young & Free




3. Something Real - DubVision ft Nevve



4. Oceans Away (The Mightnight Remix) - A R I Z O N A




5. Sunny Days - Armin van Buuren ft Josh Cumbee



6. Ultraviolet (ft LeyeT) - Farleon




7. Who Says - Joshua Micah



8. Fiji Water - Owl City



9. Human Nature (Great Good Fine Ok Remix) - Paperwhite



10. Light Years (ft Nikki Flores) - The Midnight



11/11-A/11-B. Stellar - HICARI
This one is special. I literally love the original version (unavailable atm :C), and all 3 of the remixes of it, which is RARE for me.









12. You Lost Me - HICARI




13. Vandalize - Rascal Flatts




14. Find Yourself - Great Good Fine Ok



15. Never Be The Same - Danny Gokey




16. 1Electricity - Culture Code ft Michael Zhonga




17. Never Enough (CASSARA Remix) - Satin Jackets ft Niya Wells




18. Save You (ft. Miranda Carey & Highway Superstar) - Sebastian Gampl



19. Dream Diary (ft Honey Colonna) - Highway Superstar



20. Long Way Home (Extended Mix) - Noah Neiman & Jay Bombay (feat. Laci Kay)




BONUS: 21. The One He Speaks Through - Mandisa
This year I learned a very important lesson about intercessory prayer and gained some important tools for doing so. This was a song that really helped me understand it.




Friday, September 1, 2017

The Wait is NOT A Waste: 8 Ways to Revive Your Patience & Faith


One seemingly ordinary summer, I got a spiritual assignment. Before this, I've never done anything much with intercessory prayer, but God placed a specific person in/on my heart and mind whom I have been assigned to intercede for. I didn't even know that God did things like this, but I was eager to participate. Once I learned about Prayer Burdens, what they are, how they work, and what my job is to do, I jumped right into it.

I had the zeal, the drive, the determination, the desire, and burning passion. I had my mandate, a pure, passionate love and compassion for the situation which made fervent and persistent prayer about the whole thing extremely easy.


There was just one key thing I realized I didn't/don't have: Patience.


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I've never been much of a patient person, unless I just find something else to take my mind off of what I'm obsessing over (which is hard). I started out believing that what I was assigned to pray for, would all happen on my time table... but that's selfish and fleshly.

When I realized that asking the Lord to do things and hearing Him say He will do them requires waiting for Him to do them on His time, I had to put myself in check. I learned that we should never ask God Himself to humble us, to give us patience/faith/confidence/etc, but rather we should ask Him that we have the mindset and ability to develop those things within ourselves (otherwise, we're literally asking for trials and tribulation and welcoming more God-approved adversity in our lives).

So knowing that, I asked God to reveal ways for me to be encouraged and encourage myself through my trouble. After the first month of just waiting and still praying, then after 60 days, 70 days, and now 80 days, I constantly prayed throughout the weeks that God give me encouragement to stick it through... and boy did He deliver!

Here's 8 reminders that have truly been keeping me going...


1. The importance of what you ask for.


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One thing that really helped me was remembering that I was asking for someone's salvation. That they have the wisdom to accept it, the environment, the mindset, the understanding, and everything they need in order to have a true fighting chance and know how much they need the Lord. God even put it on my heart to ask that they have no excuse to reject salvation. Films like A Christmas Carol, It's a Wonderful Life, The Game Plan, or What If come to mind.
As much as I would love for someone's deliverance to be that easy and fit in a 1.5 hour time slot, the truth is, asking for God to change someone's entire lifestyle, mindsets, convictions, and heart is a HUGE thing. Yeah, sure, God can make it happen quickly, He can do whatever He wants...and for some that is what happens... but for others (read: most), nothing would get learned that way.

I had to pause and remember that what I'm asking for isn't a simple or throw-away thing.

When what you are asking God to do (and/or what He tells you He is going to do) will involve someone else's heart, free will, and lifestyle, be prepared for it to take a while. Humans are stubborn, humans are skeptical, humans are cynical. We are often stuck in our own ways, and become easily convinced to back out or fall for a well-packaged lie, and when you are asking for someone to overcome these obstacles, the devil will do all that he can in his crafty ways to make his falsities more convincing.
It's also good to mention that your own heart can be holding up the show. When I began praying for my person, my prayers were more centered around myself, my feelings, and how their salvation would impact me (and me with the person). I realized after about a week of praying this way, that I was focused on myself and my prayers were selfish in nature. Once I began to solely focus on the person and their salvation, regardless of my own feelings about it, I felt things begin to move and shift in the spirit.

2. It's about faith, not facts.


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We might not be of this world, but we sure are in it. I often get caught up in the intricacies of living in reality and that includes taking "facts" to heart and letting my faith fall dormant. 

Recently, I learned that when God gives you a mandate and tells you clearly "I am going to do thus, thus, and thus..." you are operating on His faith. However, when you need God to move because you can't accomplish something without God's help, you are operating on your own faith. When it comes to operating on your own faith there is more of a desire to be lazy about it. You are more likely to just let it slack off and not really put it into motion, I think (not that I'm speaking from experience or anything :P).
Faith is always there inside of you, but when it's unused it becomes inactive and dormant. We are told that we must "stir up the gift of God" (2 Tim 1:6) and if faith is a gift, which is very much is, then we must employ movement and passion to activate it and stir up that gift. You can't do what Jesus can do (miracles, healing, salvation, etc) but your passion and desire can move God to move for you. 
Especially if it is for someone else (intercessory). As much as we want to lean on human logic and common sense, you have to let go of that crutch and hand the controls to God. 

All the time I catch myself trying to use human logic and reasoning to try to not only rationalize what is happening and why it is taking so long for things to manifest, but to find comfort and answers. The truth is, God is bigger than any human logic I could ever dream to think up and it doesn't matter how hard I try to dig for answers and signs, if God does not want me to know, see, or be aware of something (because the time isn't right or I'm not prepared) then He won't reveal it to me.

3. God's ALREADY been moving.


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One of the biggest things that helps me hang on in the baron interim of waiting (and something that I learned from Charles Stanley in his sermon about Prayer Burdens) is to remember that God was already working on the situation before He even laid it on my heart to pray about it. Before it crossed my mind, before the person was in my heart, before I had any desire to even just care about the person, let alone intercede, this entire situation was already something Jesus' hands were crafting and forming. 
He does this a lot... and just decides to let us in on the blessing. 
For all we know, when God has you asking for something (whether via His faith, or your own) He has been working on that thing for years longer than you could imagine.

The hardest thing about having to wait on the manifestation of something you've prayed for and keeping your faith strong in the meantime, is that you want to see updates. It's nerve-wrecking to have to just go by faith alone that things are changing and that you are truly being heard.
I wish there was a progress bar I could watch so that I can clearly see when and exactly how much my prayers were helping this person. Of course, God doesn't work that way. If that were the case, I wouldn't have to stretch my faith in the first place. Whenever God sees in us dormant or inactive faith (which He hates, Heb 11:6), He will allow things to happen to us which stretch and exercise that faith. He will throw at us situations that require tremendous amounts of faith from us and we have to believe that He is moving in the midst. The good news is, we can all rest in knowing that when God is doing something in our lives, He will be faithful to bring it to completion and that is a promise (Phil 1:6). 

In finally taking that fact to heart, it helped me humble myself and realize that I was not handing out this person's salvation via my prayers. They aren't getting saved because I was asking for it, they are getting saved because it's God's will and He just assigned me to lobby for it. Once I understood that God is (and already was) moving even though I can't actively see it, I realized that I just needed to do the job I was assigned and not worry about anything else.

4. Timing really, really is EVERYTHING.


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After I discovered Owl City in 9th grade, I also discovered the singer LIGHTS and her song Timing Is Everything couldn't be any more relevant than right now.
God is a God of order and organization. He does everything by a schedule and He's so good, even when we humans go off course, He will still work it all out where everything that was meant to happen will happen (so long as you have a desire to get back on course :P).

Jesus has a good plan and purpose for the things that happen to each of us, even if the things were originally something malicious the devil did for evil (Gen 50:20) and we would do well to always remember this. We have to trust in Jesus' timing. 

When what you are asking for involves someone else's heart and free will, you will not only have to be patient because people are stubborn and easily fooled, but because the timing may not be right for them to have that change of heart just yet. Their lifestyle may not be able to support it yet, they may not be in a place to understand it yet, or they may have to reach a certain level of (spiritual) maturity and awareness first. 
When I first started praying for my person and asking for God to give them a heart of flesh, I was anxious to see how it would start to manifest. I thought perhaps I'd start hearing the person say and do things that prove they are beginning to change... but then I realized that it might not be the right time yet. If the foundation of their salvation is manifested too soon, it may scare them away from God and their purpose in life and they may become even more cynical and skeptical. If their salvation was delayed (whether by me praying the wrong things/in the wrong spirit, or them falling into more sin) then they might have more strongholds and obstacles to overcome than they originally were meant to.

The timing of when what you have asked God to do will manifest is key to upholding your patience. Especially when what you have asked deals with the human heart. No heart surgeon preforms emergency surgery on a patient in the middle of the hospital hallway, in street clothes, and with a hammer and chisel while the patient's family looks on from the waiting room. No, the surgeon must be fully prepared with the right clothes, the right environment, the right tools, carefully, meticulously, cautiously making sure his patient's heart is repaired and behaving the way it should. This takes incredible timing and care and it's no different when God is working in someone's heart.
You may be in the waiting room while God is preforming heart surgery on someone you love and care for, and while you brought them to the hospital, God knows the right time to begin and end the surgery. 

5. Feelings are intense, internal, and... irrelevant.




Don't misunderstand me. Feelings are important. VERY important. Especially to me as an artist and an INFP. Feelings help me cope, help me make my art, help me connect with others and their art and music and all sorts of things... but they also are the ultimate distraction and deception.

When I began to pray for my person and realized that it was a job placed on me by the Lord and not just my own fleshy desire because I liked the person, I was better able to focus on them and what they needed and what God placed in my heart to pray for them.
Eventually, however, my feelings still get in the way and that's when doubt, discouragement, human logic, and common sense try to step in and tell me "it's impossible", "there's no way it'll happen" and that "it's just a pipe dream." The thing is though, all of the things that lead me to doubt and worry are just emotions. I see something that upsets me, or a hear something that makes me think "what's the point? My prayers are bouncing off the ceiling." and then I believe in that because of how it makes me feel. When a specific event that normally would upset me (albeit thanks to my own doing) happened during my time praying for this person, I was wholly prepared to feel my anxiety disorder take over. I waited for my skin to feel like it was on fire, my heart to race, and that oh too familiar feeling of hopelessness to overtake me to a dark place.... but thankfully, to my surprise, God prevented my anxiety from ever coming and because of this, I was able to continue praying for my person without my emotions getting in the way. He wants us to be persistent in prayer so whenever something may get in the way of that, if you put it in His hands, He will remove it. 

If you are praying for God to move and your feelings are getting in the way, the best thing you can do for yourself is to place your heart in God's hands. I asked for God to take my heart and ALL of my feelings and emotions into His mighty hands a few days before that event happened, and I'm so thankful that I did. God's grace is sufficient (2 Cor 12:9) and He further proved it when I actively asked for and allowed Him take control of my heart. 

When it comes to doing a job for God (whether it is something you take on yourself, or an assignment He gives you), what you see and what you feel cannot dictate what you do and what you believe. Feelings are important and help us find balance and harmony in daily life, but if they are allowed to run rampant through your head, they will indeed take over. 


6. He allows us to rest in constant encouragement along the way.


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The greatest thing about choosing to trust in God and His plan and timing and placing your heart in His hands, is that He will ALWAYS provide for you renewed strength and support to get through it.  
Over the course of the 80+ days/nights I have been praying for my person, I've had to ask God to renew my strength less and less. This signified to me that I've been getting stronger and able to hold on to the strength God gives me with more and more of a tighter grip. So many nights I felt weary and my flesh grew tired but I still had a desire and drive to pray (a side effect of being human :P Matt 26:41). I have to let my flesh rest many times and that's when I also ask for God to renew my strength. 
I am a person who loves music and uses music to cope with every day life. I began to ask God to speak to me through songs and allow me encouragement through either the music I already listen to or new songs I discover. The beautiful thing is, God does it. So many songs were brought to me just over the summer alone that spoke specifically to me about my feelings (and keeping them at bay), my person, and the whole situation. I have also been blessed to find a lot of articles and sermon podcasts online that offer great perspective, wisdom, and encouragement to me.
So many songs and sermons of hope and faith and encouragement and uplifting inspiration that have to this day, helped to keep me going. 

Another point to add would be that God will always provide witnesses (Acts 14:17, Deut 19:15). Not just witnesses to your situation, but people who have been through the same thing (not exactly, but something close) and their testimony unlocks your current situation. God will not leave you in an issue without showing you how He's brought others through similar ones. When I learned this, I prayed and asked God to show me the witnesses for the work in my life. I actually forgot I prayed for this, but about a month later, God revealed to me not just one, not two, but four different accounts and testimonies of people all about similar situations to my own. If you are not aware of any witnesses to your own current issue, then you can simply ask God to reveal witnesses to you. They will provide you with hope and encouragement to carry on and know that if they can do it, you can too. If God did it for them, He can do it for you. 

When what you are asking for will take a lot of time and patience, God will always provide for you ways to receive encouragement and to keep on trucking. The key is recognizing that He will do this, asking and expecting Him to. 



7. It's Great Practice For Persistent Prayer


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Be as persistent as this pug :0

All throughout God's Word, you will find "I waited patiently", "I seeked", "He heard", etc (Psalm 40:1, Psalm 116:2, Psalm 88:1-18, Psalm 130:1-6). 
You will also see words like "persistent" "always" and "constantly" when talking about prayer (Luke 18:1-8, Eph 6:18, Romans 12:12, 1 Thess 5:7). 

God wants us to pray without ceasing or stopping. He wants us to continuously ask with passion and fervent compassion and care, not because He enjoys making us beg, didn't hear you the first 15 times, or He wants to make you repeat yourself, but because the passion you build in persistent prayer (especially if it's on someone else's behalf) is the same passion Jesus has for us. On top of this, in asking persistently with passion, you will discover if what you want and desire truly is right and truly is what you want and desire (the Lord will reveal it to you). 

Matthew 7:7-8 says "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened." which means that we aren't supposed to just ask for something on the fly, and let it sit on a shelf. Taking action through persistent prayer is a big way in which we activate our faith. The more we ask, the more we seek, and the more we knock at God's door, the more we show God that we truly want what we are asking for in our hearts. Of course, you must be asking and desiring in the right spirit and not out of selfishness, jealously, envy, anger, etc. 

If or when you finally get a response from God saying He will do it (or you simply just have faith that it will), do not take that word or confidence as an excuse to stop praying. After you've been praying and praying for something and God gives you a prophetic or revealing word about it or you have reached a strong level of confidence and faith, the devil's first action is to make you think you can now sit back in that confidence and faith, and just wait for it to happen... but that's a deception. The Word says "pray without ceasing" but it does not say "pray without ceasing or until you get a prophetic word." Of course, it doesn't mean you have to keep praying that same old tired prayer you were praying before you got your word, because it's been answered.  However, just like you, the devil also knows that God is moving and hat the answer to your prayers will be manifest... so he will do all he can to stop it (especially if it's intercessory). I received a prophetic word from God a few weeks into my situation, and realized now is the time to start praying that no trick or deception of the devil keeps my person from getting their blessing and hearing/answering the call of God. That nothing the devil tries will prosper against my person.

On the flip side of all this, I think it's good to mention that you also shouldn't keep praying about it, if you think it'll speed things up. That's taking advantage of persistent prayer and it could severely delay the plan and process God has in action currently. I've found usually that asking God to give me discernment of flesh vs spirit and to constantly be able to pray in the right spirit helps a lot to combat this from happening.


8. God hears EVERY prayer.


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The thin and thick of it is this: No matter what you're asking for, God hears you. 
It doesn't always feel like it when you have to wait and wait for a long time. Your feelings take over and bring doubt and worry and fear and discouragement with them and your mind starts racing with "what if's" that get you anxious and antsy. 

The devil's favorite trick of the heart is to make you think there's no hope with discouragement. However, the devil is a liar and the truth is that God hears every single thing that you ask of and to Him. Does He answer exactly how you asked or thought? No, but He answers them the way they are meant to be answered and in the way that suits us best (even if we don't realize it). This means that no request goes unheard and no prayer you can pray will be ignored. It's all about remembering timing and stretching your faith. 

Once again, where the human heart is involved, God works with immense care and indefatigably. When you are wholeheartedly asking for a change of heart (in you or especially someone else), God listens and acts according to His timing and His wisdom. It's hard to follow, impossible to understand, and can drive you nuts... but when it's all over, you can look back and realize that all of that work and all of your tears and time spent were not a waste.





As much as I would love to sit in my chair typing this and say that I've overcome the beast of impatience, the honest truth is that I struggle with waiting almost every day (in general as well as in my situation), but with these things to remind me, I've noticed that I've had less and less (pretty much no) anxiety stemming from impatience.

So don't feel discouraged if God has laid something upon your heart, or you are asking Him to do something in a life, and you must wait for it to manifest.  You must remember that "[His] thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways [His] ways[...] For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are [His] ways higher than your ways, and [His] thoughts than your thoughts" (Isaiah 55:8-9).


We can't even begin to know or understand what God really has in mind and His will and plans for us or any one else, so the best thing we could ever, ever do is to just hold on tight, obey His word and guidance of the Holy Spirit, and trust in Him.

Remember: God is patient with us, and if we are meant to be like Him, doesn't that mean we must be patient too?


"I don't know where the story ends, but I'll be alright cause You wrote it."



Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Using Music To Connect With Your Characters





As a fantasy writer, listening to the appropriate music while writing can really get you in ~the mood~ and set the tone for a scene, a situation, or the entire story.


Of course, when it comes to fleshing out your characters and really knowing who they are beyond just dialog on a page or a doodle on the canvas, one of the best tools (and possibly most underused even) is choosing the right songs for them.

I discovered this out of personal struggle. Since 2011/2012, I have been (very off-and-on) writing a story titled Beyond the Wall. To put it short, it's a POC Fantasy story, wedged somewhere between High and Low Fantasy (Middle Fantasy?) with elements of action, adventure, comedy, magic, and romance. It's set in my fictional world of Soren, an Earth-esque planet inhabited by elves (along with mythological animals and beasts). Based on my experience with writing this story and having to do all of the character development, music is the greatest asset a character creator (whether a writer or illustrator) can use when fleshing out a character and giving them a background and a life.

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So, you know that magical feeling you get in the pit of your soul when an artist creates a song that perfectly captures how you feel about another person, situation, yourself, or your life, and they express it in their lyrics better than you could possibly could?

Take that principle and apply it to your characters. Finding songs that sound like your character could have created them is the musical key to connecting to them as their creator.

Once you get that song, or a playlist of 4 or 5 songs (or 20, or 30) that speak to the heart of your character and their personality, then you've got a strong and constant tool to use when trying to get in the head space and finding the muse for that character.

Where do you find music?

Sure, you can file through all the songs stashed in your music library and try to match them up with your characters. There's nothing wrong with that and it's fun and easier than music hunting because you're already familiar with the tunes at hand. The more broad your music taste, the easier this can be.

But, it can make things harder when you have a dark, broodish, and cynical character but most of the songs you know and enjoy are upbeat pop hits or electronic dance songs.
I had this issue a lot when I was younger and it made picking theme songs for my characters harder than ever. I finally found a way to combat this when I began to discover all of the amazing music tucked away in the hidden corners of the Youtube corn maze.

Youtube channels such as:

  • Funky Panda
  • ENM
  • Elegant Sister (ES)
  • MrSuicideSheep OR SuicideSheep (same guy, different channel)
  • Indie Current
  • Alrota Music 
  • and xKito Music
all post songs by independent, up and coming, and hidden gem artists literally every single day (or close to it for some). Most, if not each, of these channels has playlists of dozens or sometimes hundreds of songs sorted by genre and make finding appropriate character songs so much easier than asking around for song suggestions from friends, on forums, hunting for songs with a certain sound or lyrics on google, or posting to Yahoo Answers.  I also have a habit of looking up songs I've heard and liked on tv commercials because they are often good and can come in handy for character stuff.


Think about your character's personality.


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Imagine if Lurch's theme song was
 JT's Can't Stop the Feeling. Ill-fitting, yet oddly funny.
When choosing the right songs for your baby, you want to keep in mind who they are. What is their personality like? Are they brash? Tactful? Shy? Charming and charismatic? Sarcastic and cynical? Perhaps an odd mix. Find whatever adjectives describe them. If your character is a shy brooding type,  for example, then it might fare well for you to search for songs with lyrics that portray this sort of mentality and lifestyle. Of course, if you want to make a statement about your character keeping their true personality hidden, or them pretending to be someone they really aren't, then choosing a song that represents the real them and not their chosen persona would be best.

Lyrics might be dandy, but instrumentals can be handy.


Naturally, lyrics to a song are the most fun and easiest thing to match up to a character and storyline. However, you cannot ignore instrumental music either. The great thing about choosing instrumentals for your characters, is that they can help you to really get a feel for your character's presence and how they carry themselves, without having to worry about what the lyrics are saying.
Personally, when I choose instrumental songs for my characters, I don't ask myself what type of music would [character] listen to? so much as I ask if [character] was a genre of music, what would they sound like?  The token idea here is that you are finding your characters aesthetic through music. 

For example, my character Roland is an overthinking ISTJ who loves horticulture, schedules, and occasionally singing when no one's around. Instead of choosing music that is dark and heavy or slow and dragging for him, I decided on acoustic and indie folk, since he is a "Donny Downer" type, but also a nature lover with a off-kilter since of humor. 

Really think about the essence of your character.

Music make you lose gain control.


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When choosing songs for your characters, it's important to remember the impact that music can have while you are writing. There's tons of articles you can find online that talk about how influential music is to writers. How it can help you focus, inspire and encourage you to continue working on something you started to get bored with, or motivate you to finish things that you've neglected. I've heard the best is lukewarm ambient instrumental (not so great sounding it distracts you, but not bad to the point it also distracts you), but here's more to it than that, I believe. 

While I write, I either listen to the songs I chose for the characters that are in the scene I'm writing, or I listen to Epic Score/Cinematic music that I feel fits the scene. Writing without that foundation of music in the background has actually proved to be more difficult to me. 

Having music with a perfect fit to your story and characters to listen to as you write can totally immerse you into the scene you are writing. 
I'm an illustrator and visual person, so when I create stories, I usually think up the scenes in terms of screenplay, camera angles, and staging at the start, so having the actual audio of score music (that isn't associated with a movie or tv show that already exists) to the hypothetical movie I'm creating helps to make it feel more real. 
This helps to keep me mindful of not only the aesthetic/atmosphere of the scene I'm writing, but what the characters are doing, how they are acting in the scene, and interacting with each other. simply because it forces me to imagine how they are going to be moving and staged throughout the scene in tangent with the music. 

As a sidenote, I think there is absolutely nothing wrong with listening to songs that are in the "so great sounding it distracts you" category, if they are songs relating to your characters/story. That way, if or when you are distracted by the music, you will still be thinking about your characters/story and keep your focus on that.



And there you have it. Some ideas for how to get started finding the perfect songs for your characters! 
Remember that songs can have multiple meanings and just because the lyrics of a song sounds one way, doesn't mean it can't mean something else. And that something else might be something that your character can relate to. 
That perfect song can come from anywhere, you just have to be willing to listen.

Happy Writing!

Monday, May 2, 2016

What I've Learned About Making a Fantasy World

I've been working on my story/fantasy world of Beyond The Wall since 2011 and I've learned a lot through trial and error and being in classes. I'm still learning how to do things, and this is in no way a list of tips or advice, but rather, a list of the things I tried and failed at, that might help someone else struggling with the same issue with their fantasy story or world
I'm just gonna jump right in, and get started!


CHARACTERS NEED A PURPOSE
Although, it seems like a no-brainer, sometimes it's actually easy to neglect your character's personalities. You end up making them extremely one-sided or just shallow. Many times, this can be due to making self-insert characters. I know, because that was the origins of my story. My main character, name Carmondy at the time (now Carmandy because it looks/sounds better) was a self-insert of me. Meanwhile her love interest, an owl-turned-elf character named Fukuro, was modeled after Adam Young/Owl City. When it comes down to it, I was just telling the story of how much of an Owl City fangirl I was in the most intricate way possible. This might of worked, if I was any good of a character creator and writer, but both Carmondy and Fukuro ended up flat and basically had no purpose, other than to fulfill my fantasy of smooching Adam Young. There was no real meat to the characters and it was basically just me and Adam in cartoon form. 

BE INSPIRED, BUT DON'T BE A THEIF
The artist Mark Crilley talks about this in one of his videos, and it's something I had to learn to understand. When I first created my fantasy world, I used anime as my key inspiration..namely, Hiiro No Kakera and Fresh Pretty Cure. Using the anime as inspiration isn't bad, but I just began pulling things straight from the anime world and injecting them into my world and characters. I had male characters that I posed as bishies (anime version of a pretty-boy), I had weird outfits that were weird for the sake of being weird, every character had some strange, unnatural hair color (some still do, but not like they did) and there was a lot of Japanese influence, in a world that wasn't Japan-based. This is what I mean.. here is the some of the character of Hiiro No Kakera, while here and here are two of the first characters I made. These characters just weren't me. They simply just looked like what I thought a bishie would look like. Being inspiring by something mean you us eit as fuel to create your own thing, but it doesn't mean you copy every little thing you see. You can start with what you know and add your own details to it.. make it unique to you! ....but speaking of unique...


DON'T GO OVERBOARD WITH THE UNIQUENESS 
I think it's just an automatic thing to do when you're just starting to create your own fantasy world. You want to make sure it's uniquely you, that it has names and cultures and languages never before seen...but all too often, it can go overboard. I tried too hard to be "unique" with my character's names and it ended up making things weird. Honestly, I think the line should be drawn when you have to provide a “guidebook” for how to pronounce character and location names, or it looks and sounds awkward. Having one or two that are strange and quirky isn't bad, but try not to give every other character a mystical fantasy name. Originally, I had characters like Valintive Valeos, Paradox Safecaster, and even Orange Mcapple. While these are all interesting sounding names, and definitely say this is a world unlike our own, some of them are weird to pronounce, awkward to put in dialog, and/or sounds just plain silly in context. To fix this, I think taking real-world names and spelling them differently or mashing them together (Rani+ Vanilla  = Ranilla, or Lisa = Leasa), using names for things in a specific language(while Gaelic and latin are common, or elvish, there is also Hindi, Swahili, French, or whatever you like!), or swapping out letters (like replacing all the i’s and e’s with y’s, Ken might become Kyn) can help. 


USE NAME GENERATORS DELICATELY
I think we've all been there. There's a myriad of name generators, specifically for oc's out there, and some just for fantasy. However, while it helps get your creative juice flowing, many times these names aren't the best to use as official. To make my point, my character Paradox Safecaster got his name completely from a name generator without editing...and while there's no harm in giving a character a name of two words mashed together (I mean, Luke Skywalker, anyone?) it just didn't fit the world I was creating. The word "paradox" comes with such a strong image, it would make sense to use it as the name of a spaceship or a futuristic robot... but for a neo-victorian elf world, it wasn't working. While name generators are great to help you get ideas, don't be so ready to take the suggestions word for word, letter for letter. Try changing up the spelling of a prompted name from a generator (which is what I sometimes do now) so that everything lines up and it feels like one solid fantasy world. So all of that being said....


KEEP ALL YOUR FANTASY NAMES/LANGAUGE CONSISTENT
First off, if you're trying to create your own fantasy language, then MORE POWER TO YOU because that is pretty admirable. Good on ya!
Of course, most choose to write in their native tongue (or just English) but the point in what I'm saying is still the same. Try to keep consistency with the names of nouns and also, if you use any words for the character's language. For example, I use a lot of "iq", q's, and z's in my names, having places like Venziq Port, Windchestiq Woods, Port Westiq, and the Gravroq Tunnels, while the elf races are Afari, LunariDokari, and Vulpelves. Originally, though I just named things and characters based on if I found the name cool or if it sounded "fantasy" enough.  In being conscious about names, I feel it helps to establish the culture/s of your world and helps you get a grip on naming other characters and places in the future because you will have a sort of pattern to work from. 


KEEP ALL OF YOUR CHARACTERS CONSISTENT AS WELL
This is something I still have to work with. Of course, when you are making a comic or a series of illustrations for your characters, you always have to be mindful of making sure the characters look the same from every angle (thank God for character model sheets!) but you also should keep them consistent in personality/aesthetic as well. For example, all of my elf races wear some sort of neo-victorian/steampunk fashion, but each have specific colors and symbols/objects pertaining to them. The Lunari live on and around the water and wear mostly (pastel versions of) silvers, greys, blues, greens, tans, or white. Meanwhile, the Vulpelves live in treehouses and wear colors such as reds, oranges, greens, browns, coppers, cream and black, with metals, machinery parts, and local flora as fashion accessories. Key characters of these elf races will pull from these "guidelines" to get a sense of consistency among my characters. 


DON'T FOCUS ON UNIMPORTANT DETAILS EARLY ON
I'm a very detail-oriented person when it comes to my art. While not a perfectionist, I do like to put thought into the details of a drawing or story, so that the viewer/reader can have a little fun experiencing the art. It's very good to have even the most minute of details ironed out. I mean things like... what material your character's pants are made of, their favorite toys growing up, types of armor used by the army, what specific type of guns, swords, etc weaponry their military uses, down to the brand of bullets or metal. It's true, people will ask questions and you want to at least TRY to provide the (canon) answer. However, when you are planning out the answer to all these details...and your main story still has characters or places without names, plot points or holes that don't make any sense, and a lore/culture that is underdeveloped, try to focus on these things first. People will ask questions, but they will ask the big ones before they can ever get to the small ones. Readers/viewers are more likely to ask "How did they get all that treasure from there to there?" than they are "What does [character's name] use as make-up?" It took me a while to realize that no one is going to care about the intricate colors of my character's hair, as much as the story itself... until they begin to fall in love with the characters and plot. Once you have people hooked on your creations (or have them fully fleshed out), then I think then you can try to jigsaw all those little details together. Which reminds me...



DON'T LIMIT YOUR FANTASY WORLD TO REAL WORLD LOGIC
The first thing anyone will tell you, when you create a fantasy world, is that consistency is key. If you want your world to be completely otherworldly and say, have no gravity and a permanently purple sky, then this better always be true (unless the story itself is about changing one of those things).  However, this can also work the other way. I mainly did this when creating the nobles who lived and worked in the castle, but I've noticed a lot of other world-builders do this with weapons or fashion. Basically, when I was creating my castle characters, I looked up real world castles, and the jobs one can have working in a castle. While it's always good to be inspired, I took things too seriously and tried to match up the real world jobs with my characters. Eventually, I realized it is okay to make up my own jobs and job titles, especially because this is fantasy. I've seen someone specifically say "OH my character’s culture is based off of Greecian and Roman culture, so, historically, they can’t have X-type of weapons" and I think that's just so limiting... unless you are doing historical fiction. It's a fantasy! Don't be afraid to make up your own things.. as long as everything is consistent it should work. This is why Steampunk is such a successful concept. It's Victorian or Edwardian inherently, but a steampunk character can still have a computer or a television or a car, simply because of the steampunk aesthetic and in how the object is designed/put together.



 (APPROPRIATE) MUSIC CAN REALLY HELP
If there is one thing that I love to do, it's use music as a tool for/with my art. Naturally, I would find songs as I created my world, but I found out it actually helps a lot. Now, I don't just mean turning on the radio to the local pop or r&b station and listening to just anything while you work. I'm talking about having a specific type of music to listen to, one which helps to capture the feel, aesthetic, setting, and atmosphere of your world and your characters. For me, it's all about electronic music, or the action/adventure, romance, fantasy, and steampunk-ish sounding songs. Two great sources to go to for music inspiration is Two Steps From Hell and Audiomachine.  Both artists have albums that capture a certain atmosphere (there is an album for a hypothetical romantic movie, one for a dark fantasy movie, one for a horror movie, etc) and pretty much all of these songs on any album can be found on their site and on Youtube. Other recommendations I would give is SizzlebirdPort Blue, or AYoungScores.  All of those can be found on youtube as well as others like FutureWorldMusic, Ivan Torrent, and official scores to movies/video games/tv shows. In any case, I really believe listening to the right music really helps. Try writing an action-packed pirate ship chase scene in silence.. and then try writing the very same action-packed scene while listening to this. If you're a good writer then it might be the exact same either way, but I believe music helps those like myself who have to be completely immersed in the scene and situation in order to write about or draw it. As a sidenote, I know I used pop and R&b as an example, but if that matches the aesthetic or atmosphere of your world or a certain character or something, then go for it! Find the genre that matches your world!

LASTLY


DON'T BE AFRAID TO EDIT, ALTER, SCRAP, OR RETHINK YOUR IDEAS AND DESIGNS.
 I rarely have a clever idea, so when the moment does happen, I make sure to capture it and never let it go. However, my clever idea, might not be as clever as I once thought. In the 5-6 years I've been working on my story, it's gone through 3 different titles, has lost and gained perhaps 10 or so characters altogether, character's names have been changed dramatically, and even the entire direction and plot of my story has been heavily edited 2 or 3 times. My main character, Carmandy, had a name change as well as a redesign twice. This is one of the things I've been doing right, that really helps me in world-building and character development. You can't get too attached to a story, especially in it's beginning stages. Things evolve the more work you put into them and you'd be surprised to see how many of your favorite characters and/or movies first started out. Ie, Disney's Tangled was first titled "Rapunzel", then "Rapunzel Unbraided", until Tangled was agreed upon. The character Eugene/Flynn was also heavyset with broad shoulders and a thick core in his original concepts.  Even after stories are published and movies are released, characters undergo redesigns and wardrobe changes all the time.  

And that's it!
All of the things I've personally learned so far from doing my own world building, and/or learning about character creation in illustration class. Hopefully it helps and is useful! 
Happy world building!

Monday, March 21, 2016

Confessions of a Melomaniac


Disclaimer: A post with a LOT of photos to load. All music links lead to corresponding Youtube videos of said links.~~~~



If you Google image search the phrase "can't live without music", it yields the expected images of gaudy text on a background that were probably posted on a 15 year old's angsty blog. Another word for this phrase however, is the word Melomania.



A trope commonly seen in movies, tv shows, cartoons, and comics alike, the image of the aspiring, apathetic rockstar teen who plays in a garage band with their friends and wears purple hair and lip rings, is what generally comes to mind when one thinks of someone passionate about music. However, for many people melomania is a real and true condition, so to speak (and yes, that includes many of those stereotyped teens). 

There is an image floating around about what the word Melomaniac means.
However, according the dictionary, it's a little more than that. Medical Dictionary defines it as a person with "(1) A singing compulsion; (2) An abnormal passion for music." Of course, this is far from any mental illness or medical condition, mind you (trust me, I would know). I wouldn't even classify it as an addiction. However, for me, being a Melomaniac is only magnified by my trait to hyperfocus and make odd connections via ADHD. 

I don't personally know any other melomaniacs out there, other than myself (possibly my mother? but not to the degree of myself). Still, here is what it's like to be one....and if you have the realization that you are one yourself, then c'mon. Let's share some songs.


Revelator Eyes. A beautiful song/video about using music to speak your feelings.

Back in high school, we read a story, and watched a film about a vain girl being seduced and stalked by a satyr or demon-like creature disguised as a human guy (I can't remember the title, but it's not really important). What stood out to me was when the teacher mentioned for us to take note that the main female character always had music playing. No matter where she went, there was a radio on, a record player, a jukebox. I can't remember the significance to the plot of the story, but I do remember how that moment stuck out to me. I had never really thought about it, but everywhere I went I had music playing. From childhood on, whether it was a walkman, a CD player, Hitclips, an mp3 player, the computer, the tv, the radio, or my cell phone, I constantly kept music around me. I've got 26 seperate playlists on Youtube for different types of music and each playlist has anywhere form 18 to 200+ songs. Not to mention, I subscribe to channels like MrSuicideSheep and Funky Panda where they post new music practically daily (okay that sounds like a sponsor plug.. but it's just the truth).

Honestly it doesn't sound too big of a deal, and on a surface level, it isn't. Many people keep music on daily to help them work, distract them, help them zone out, or refresh...but it's deeper than that for me. While I also enjoy having background music or something to mask the silence and keep my work/art flow going, I've always had a deep emotional tie to music. 

We all have that song that we hear and it takes us back to that one moment. Perhaps a first date, first kiss, break up, a fun time with friends, family gatherings, a lonely time, etc. Imagine having that feeling about almost every song you listen to, for almost every feeling you have. Every situation is tied to a song, every song is tied to a feeling, every feeling needs explaining through poetry and a melody. 
Usually, it just feels like I can't fully understand what I am feeling until I listen to a song pertaining to that feeling(whether by lyrics or sound of the music itself). I have to find the song that perfectly embodies it (or the situation).

And when I find that song? Sometimes it feels like...


While other times it's more like...


There is a certain invigorating certainty in finding a song that perfectly confirms, explains, and expresses my emotions/feelings for a situation, or a situation itself. I almost can't describe it. Sometimes I can't even explain or express anything that I am feeling, or how to feel toward something until I find a song to match. And, don't be fooled, I don't discriminate. It can be instrumental, rock, trance, dance, country, folk, whatever. 

Beyond having a perfect song for a situation/feeling, I also have a need to find songs that perfectly match a specific aesthetic, theme, or mood. This is usually for locations and things that I see. I tend to associate certain places or types of places rather with genres of music or songs. For example, a photo like this:
Can only be matched by and with a song such as St. Clarity by The Paper Kites or I Live Alone by Sky Sailing. Meanwhile, an imagine such as this:
....feels like it absolutely has to be with a song like World On Fire by Above and Beyond or something like Too Cool by Euge Groove (ignore the goose lol).

Rest assured, I don't just do this for fun with photos and gifs online. When I'm really in scenes/places such as this, I have this burning urge to listen to that music which matches with the aesthetic of what I'm seeing. While I gravely enjoy and find joy in matching songs to random things that just feel right, it's much like a natural, ingrained need that I have to fulfill, otherwise I'm not taking in the entirety of the world around me. Ironic, considering many people use music as a way to separate from reality... but I need it in order connect with it. Perhaps this is an off-product of the ADHD, or an OCD (these things are often co-morbid and overlap). Perhaps, some weird version of synesthesia. Whatever the cause is, it's made me a true melomaniac and I don't see it ending any time soon. 

While there is a minor annoyance in having to pause while taking a walk or going somewhere, just to pick out the perfect song for that moment or situation, and car rides with no music are a mild form a torture for me, I try to put my melomania to good use and have produced a lot of art through it. In fact, of the 98 drawings of the first page of the featured folder of my Deviantart gallery, 34 of those artworks are actually illustrations of songs or characters drawn to a specific song. Add another 10-20 more, if you count the ones titled after songs (but not necessarily created FOR a specific song). In any case, music is an extremely important factor in my work and without the ability to hear the same song over and over and over while I draw a picture, I wouldn't be able to make much of anything.


In honestly, I am truly grateful the Lord saw fit to give me this music-related gift. I see it as such and nothing less. I appreciate it and I cradle my connection to music close to my heart. Some people may see it as a problem, a crutch, or addiction, but it's nothing like that. It's not a crutch for my feelings, it is the way I understand my feelings. It's like using a translator to understand a foreign language. 

In contrast with the prior mentioned and posted image defining what a melomaniac is, I discovered this, much more accurate one. 

That's the only way it can be explained. I don't ever want to change, and I don't want to be ashamed of it. I love music. It's a part of me.It's how the Lord made me to see and understand the world. 

 I spend many a night scoping indie electronic song posts on youtube, or stopping for a minute to scroll through my music library to find that perfect song to walk to class to for the day...and I wouldn't change that tune for anything.